GRUNGE p.3

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HAPPY NEW YEAR

Hi. Happy new year everybody.
This year was hard, not as hard as 2013, but still. I am glad that I am alive and not burried 6 feet under the dirt.
You know, being bestie with depression is hard, I can tell, but fighting with it, it's hard even more. But..I did it. I won. I am still struggling a bit, but I don't really mind. Everyone does.
So I hope that you will never have to struggle with mental illness. It is not fun.
Also I want to mention that this is the first year when I am without my best friend Alex. I miss you buddy. I really do. Thanks fot being here for me, even though you are miles and miles away.
I am also thankful for my boyfriend. He was so patient with me. He was alone when I was away for the month and he was sad, but he did not forget about me. He loved me. And he still loves me. I hope that one day we will buy a house and I will buy you a dog and I will make your favourite food everyday. I love you.
And my family..my dear family. I hope you won't be sad anymore, you won't cry anymore. Daddy please don't cry. I know it's hard to stand next to your moms grave and not to cry. I know. Mommy, please don't go. Please come back home. We miss you. I know you are sad too. But please..don't cry. Brother, please come back home. Please find some love. I love you.
I love you all. Thank you.

HARD TIMES

Sorrow. Do you know it? Sadness. Better word. Loneliness? Hopeless feeling? Yes. I do know this words. I've been through it, trough hard times. Life is beautiful, but..sometimes it's hard to get up in the morning and go to sleep at night. Sometimes it's hard to brush your teeth and get dressed. Sometimes it's hard to say I love you, when you are not feeling anything. It's hard. It's depression. 

It is hard to live with. You are not able to do anything. You can't get up, you can't study, get dressed..It's pointless. All you want to do is to lay in your bed wainting for your death. Anxiety attacks you everytime. Your family thinks you are freak. Your friends think you are freak. But you are not. You are sad. You can't do much with it. 

I've been there. If you need some help, please contact me, I am here for you. 

jasnapamulova@gmail.com

GRUNGE INSPIRATION

Hi. Haven't speak to you in a while huh? Today I want to post some pictures from tumblr and we heart it. These pics are mainly grungy themed, bc I love grunge. It's my fave style and just .. Kurt right..I can't write today I am so sorry.
Better post coming up: xmas pictures; another inspiration and winter faves. If you have any idea what should I post next, please leave a comment.

 Can we just talk about the body amd the hair.

 Always a winner.

Me. (Instagram jayypam)

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I wish that I could be like the cool kids.

Hi. I am ill again. Great. I'm lying in bed with disgusting herbal tea and a big hoodie. I wanted to do an OOTD so bad, but I can't. I am shitty person.
For the tittle: yes. I want to be a "cool kid".(btw I love that song.)
I don't know what to write here. I am useless. Only thing that I do is being on instagram 24/7. ( my name jayypam )
Slowly I am getting into the x-mas mood. This friday I am hoping, I will go to fair(I think this is how you call it I am not sure). I want to eat everything there.
Speaking about food, I can't stop eating. It is insane. For real now. Ugh.
I hope you have a good day.

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