streda 13. februára 2019
utorok 29. januára 2019
What did I leave in 2018?
Hello. This post is long overdue, but I still decided to write it. Just because. I can. 2018 was really intriguing, frankly I don't like looking back and I know that that makes me a hypocrite, but I need to vent- I need to let it go.
I would say 2018 was a rollercoaster. It ended up way lower than I expected It- if you get my metaphor. Having experienced so many heartbreaks, I can proudly say it had made me a stronger person, albeit it had destroyed the remaining pieces of my healthy authentic self. I had lost so much and when I realised it later this year, it brought me down to my knees. Feeling more than perplexed, I would even go as far as saying a little bit insane, I started my 2019 on a bad note. My resolutions and expectations paled into insignificance. I am sorry for saying all This, no one likes a negative girl, but this is the raw truth and my naked feelings .
I was being cheated on by the ones I loved the most. I was left alone by the ones I loved the most. I was betrayed by the ones I had gifted my time, heart and soul to. Having grasped for a little bit of air, like drowning Ophelia, I found myself at my wits end again when my mom was commited to hospital. She suffered a heart attack. Since then, nothing has been the same. She is no longer working, but fortunately, she is feeling a lot better and she seems happier than ever!
A lot of events in 2018 have changed my perspective on certain things and subsequently, led me to immense emptiness and solitude. All I long for now, is a little time to process things and to let go of these past demons and daunting memories. I wish me luck. And I wish you luck too.
I would say 2018 was a rollercoaster. It ended up way lower than I expected It- if you get my metaphor. Having experienced so many heartbreaks, I can proudly say it had made me a stronger person, albeit it had destroyed the remaining pieces of my healthy authentic self. I had lost so much and when I realised it later this year, it brought me down to my knees. Feeling more than perplexed, I would even go as far as saying a little bit insane, I started my 2019 on a bad note. My resolutions and expectations paled into insignificance. I am sorry for saying all This, no one likes a negative girl, but this is the raw truth and my naked feelings .
I was being cheated on by the ones I loved the most. I was left alone by the ones I loved the most. I was betrayed by the ones I had gifted my time, heart and soul to. Having grasped for a little bit of air, like drowning Ophelia, I found myself at my wits end again when my mom was commited to hospital. She suffered a heart attack. Since then, nothing has been the same. She is no longer working, but fortunately, she is feeling a lot better and she seems happier than ever!
A lot of events in 2018 have changed my perspective on certain things and subsequently, led me to immense emptiness and solitude. All I long for now, is a little time to process things and to let go of these past demons and daunting memories. I wish me luck. And I wish you luck too.
streda 7. novembra 2018
streda 31. januára 2018
FALLING FOR THE NEXT MAN WHO BREATHES | OOTD
Hello, dollies!
I haven't been here for a month, mainly bc of school and health problems. My stomach hurts everyday and it has been this way for the past month. My energy is lower than my self-esteem and trust me, my self-esteem hit rock bottom 4 years ago. Who would want life like this? I am so tired, BUT I have a lot of posts coming up! If you follow my ig, valleyofthedollss1, you would see a little sneak peaks of new beauty stuff. You should definitely go and follow it!
This post, however, is not about beauty. It's just an OOTD. Super basic, super comfy with tomboy vibes. Enjoy!
nedeľa 31. decembra 2017
365/365
Hello dollies!
Today is the last day of 2017. Does it mean anything to you? I mean humans created time so I guess it doesn't matter at all. My year was quite..eh. I don't know how to describe it. It was hectic, confusing, sad, very rough, disappointing and it learned me a lot. This year I learned so many things about life, about people and most of all about myself. I've been trying to overcome my deepest fears such as being myself and being open to basic human interactions. Although, my mental health got way worse I've got way stronger. To be honest, I'm not ready for another year because for me living is a chore. It's something I don't want and don't enjoy. Next year is my graduation year and I am not ready in the slightest. We will see. Thing are the way they are supposed to be.
So always be yourself and always learn new things. Let go of everything that holds you back and let your spirit free. Trust me and have a nice NYE.
Today is the last day of 2017. Does it mean anything to you? I mean humans created time so I guess it doesn't matter at all. My year was quite..eh. I don't know how to describe it. It was hectic, confusing, sad, very rough, disappointing and it learned me a lot. This year I learned so many things about life, about people and most of all about myself. I've been trying to overcome my deepest fears such as being myself and being open to basic human interactions. Although, my mental health got way worse I've got way stronger. To be honest, I'm not ready for another year because for me living is a chore. It's something I don't want and don't enjoy. Next year is my graduation year and I am not ready in the slightest. We will see. Thing are the way they are supposed to be.
So always be yourself and always learn new things. Let go of everything that holds you back and let your spirit free. Trust me and have a nice NYE.
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