Valley of the Lilacs: 2020

pondelok 24. augusta 2020

Nebojte sa farieb: Baby blue

Prečo som sa rozhodla robiť tieto videá? Toto je otázka, ktorú sa často pýtam samej seba. Chce to niekto vôbec pozerať?

Dúfala som, že môžem ukázať, že používať farby na očiach, ktoré sú žiarivé by urobili ľuďom radosť a tiež by ich to inšpirovalo sa hrať s nimi a tvoriť niečo nové, niečo čo by ich vytiahlo z komfortnej zóny. Nemusíte sa báť farieb, koniec koncov je to len makeup.

Have fun ♡

utorok 26. mája 2020

Just sometimes

Sometimes I do worry that something is wrong with me. I am incomplete. Some pieces are missing. Some pieces are falling. Some pieces have been taken away. Some pieces were abused. Some were abandoned. I like this quote that says: How can you find peace, when you are in pieces? Sometimes I wonder if I can collect them or if I should just start building new ones. With a strong foundation. Like a building. Something tall and big and strong whispering I am whole again. But what if I end up just building walls?

This isn't new for me. I have been through this many times. I have seen worse. However, I have never learned how to win this quite completely, it always comes back.

It gets tiresome, you know? It's been 7 years. Sometimes I wish I could get a peek of what could have happened if I was happy. Sometimes I do get that glance and I am forever grateful. But it doesn't change anything. Clinging on the thought of happiness gets exhausting and I can't fully experience the feeling because I feel like something is wrong that something bad is coming. My normal became sad years ago and when I'm 'out of my normal' I feel strange.

Sometimes I wish I was a little bit stronger.