DROWNING IN LEAVES

Hello, dollies!

Autumn is my favourite season, no doubts, but I haven't been enjoying it at all. I've been feeling lonely and I've been in so much pain for 2 months. Things have been difficult and it makes me more than sad because I can't enjoy this fall atmosphere. My spirit desires fall walks, dark lip colours, bags full of chestnuts and vibrant orange and yellow colours on trees. I haven't felt happy for a long time and not having the opportunity to enjoy this season more saddens me. It's going to be over soon.

Here are some pictures I took at the same time as the ones in my last post. Enjoy.

EDEN | OOTD

Hello, dollies! How are you?

I'm feeling terrible. I don't know why, to be frank. I'm keeping a lot of emotions to myself and it truly tortures me. I don't know how to let them out and it makes me really unhappy, frustrated and angry. I hope it'll get better.

Today's post is an og ootd. I decided to wear something more pastel because it's a nice change. I'd love to wear more pastel pieces in the future. What do you think about pastels for fall? Let me know.

SPIS CASTLE | SUMMER TRIPPIN

Hey!! How are you?

As I promised in my last post, I'm doing a post about my trip to Spis Castle (Spišský Hrad). I went there 2 weeks ago with my love David (links to his social media at the end of this post). I enjoyed it a lot even tho I'd been there many times before. The whole castle is huge and magnificent. I highly recommend visiting it.

Now let's start with the spam. Enjoy.

NO ONE LIKES US | OOTD | SKINHEAD SERIES??!!

Heyy. How are you?

Skinhead series (too soon?)! If you had been following my blog for a while, you would have know that I've been doing these 'skinhead series' for 3 years now. It always starts at the beginning of autumn season, when everything get colourful and you can feel the atmosphere changing. Ahhh I love it. Even though summer is still upon us, I felt like putting on a hooligan tee and starting my skinhead series sooner!

Disclaimer: I love fashion that is associated to skinheads not their ideology or violence they may cause.

Check my past outfits from skinhead series! Romper Stomper, Only fools get caught, London skinhead crew.

ROLLY ROLLY (WITH A DAB OF RANCH) | OOTD

Hello everyone!

How are you? How are you enjoying the last weeks of summer? I'm starting to get anxious bc I hate school, arghh. I'm trying to figure out some things in my life and it's been hard not gonna lie. Anyway, here's another outfit. Really basic bitch inspired/ lazy egg drowning in its own sweat inspired. Hope you enjoy. :)

EVERYWHERE I GO | OOTD

Heyy!

I'm still going through some rough shit and I don't know how to deal with it. In my last post, I told you I wasn't really okay and it seems that all the bad stuff and all the shit is piling up on my shoulders (yet again). Like, will it ever stop? Gosh, I'm done with it.

Anyway, here you have the long-awaited outfit from my trip to Žilina.

Oh and also, I went to cheer camp with my team. Check out our insta @destinycheerteam

TRIP TO ŽILINA

Hello!

I'm going through a really hard time and it's hard for me to edit outfit photos so instead I have some random pictures I took on my trip. I'm really sorry and I'll post as soon as possible. Hopefully, I'll get better soon because it feels like I'm slowly dying inside...and I'm scared I will not be able to stand it.

GIRLS MOTEL | OOTD

Hello everyone!

How's  your summer going? Are you dying of heat? I'm not, haha. It's not as warm which I like because I hate warm weather (that kind when you are naked and still sweat like crazy). In today's post, I'm showing you my lazy summer outfit for those days when you just hang out with your chums and chill. Enjoy!

GRUNGE p.12

Hello!

I'm back again can you believe it! I'm such a bad blogger and I keep trying to be consistent on my blog, but I always manage to fail. Either it's because of my health issues or because school is crazy and I don't have enough time. Or maybe I'm just making excuses. So I'm giving myself another chance to be a proper blogger again and if I fail again, I shoul quit. Will see what happens.

Today is the day of bringing back my favourite series on my blog- the grunge series wooo. I love getting inspired by other people's outfits and style, especially when it comes to grunge. Enjoy!

Last grunge post.

Sky Ferreira. 

I hope you got some inspo. Let me know which picture did you like the best!

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CLOSET GOALS! | AD

Hello! Long time no see.

I've been M.I.A. on my blog because life has been crazy, but I'm glad I'm back!

Today's post is inspired by Arhaus. 


In this post, I'm showing you what my dream closet would look like. It's pretty important because your closet holds all your clothes and maybe even shoes. I think we should pay more attention to closets. You can have so much fun decorating it or even building it! :)

There's a theme going on with white furniture such as this one. I love the minimalistic look of plain white furniture because it simply goes with everything and you can put your art (or paintings) on it. Furniture in my room (my closet and table) is white and I love putting paintings on it because it feels more like home and it looks good as well! What would your dream closet look like? Let me know!

WHAT I CREATE IS CHAOS

Hello! How are you?

I can't be happier. I feel spring in the air and I'm more than excited. I love when it's slowly starting to get warm. It feels so refreshing and everything seems brighter and more ravishing. I love the first sun rays and small flowers. They all look so lovely. Nature is truly magical.

I took some pictures today (by myself) and to be honest, it was hard because my phone didn't focus and I had no idea how to fix it so I just kept trying. I wanted to show you a casual outfit that is appropriate for school and is suitable for warmer weather. Let's start with the pictures. :)

 Ain't no Fentys

LIPSTICKS TO TRY | SPRING 2017

Hello! How are you today?

Sorry for not being here. I had a concussion and I was in hospital for a while. I'm all good now, but I can't dance which is unfortunate. My head still hurts a bit and I feel dizzy sometimes, but as I said it's getting better.

In this post, I'll be showing you my lipstick picks for spring. Spring is almost upon us and I am more than happy about it. I'll introduce you to some bright-coloured lipsticks filled with radiance and joy just like spring. This is the right time to be different and the right time to forget about your 'timid self'. Let's get started!

YOUNG ONES | LOVE

Hello everyone!

How are you? Long time no see. I've been crazy busy and uninspired. I was really confused this whole time because legally, I'm not a child, but I feel like one. Idk. 

I have an ootd post because these are my favs to make. Weather is a little bit better these days and so is my mood. I can't wait for spring to come! I love spring. I think it's because of my depression. It gets better in spring. 

(NOT SO SWEET) 18

Hello everyone.

I'd turned 18 on Wednesday. I know I should be happy about it. I'm an official adult. I can vote and I can buy cigarettes in every shop. The real issue is that I have never asked for this. I don't want this.

I'm lost in life. I'm not who I want to be and I'm afraid to be myself. I'm living in a cage made of my own insecurities. I'm living with a huge shadow in my head. It's getting bigger and bigger everyday. Sometimes I feel like life isn't for me. I've been struggling for too long and I still can't handle it.

I've been having nightmares for about 2 weeks. I can't get rid of them and they scare me so bad that I don't want to sleep because they seem so real. I don't know what causes this irrational fear. Presumably, it's because I associate this period of time (my b-day) with going to the hospital. I went there in the 9th grade which was 3 years ago. It still hauts me.

I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I guess I need to find my way and eventually, let myself to be happy and free.

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GALENTINE'S DAY WITH MY CHEER TEAM! | AD

Hello everybody! How are you?

I got the idea for this post from Eventbride (Click) which is a good source for planning and organizing events. You can easily set up events of your own and track who will be coming online with event organization software! (Click) They reached out to me with a great idea to make a post about Galentine's day. It's a day for you and your BFFs.

I thought since my bestie Alex lives in another country, I would make a fun day with my dearest cheerleaders. Our team is called DestinyCheerTeam and it is the only cheerleading club in Kosice, Slovakia. This kind of post is quite unusual for my blog, but after a long time of deciding it is finally here! We had a fun lesson full of dancing, conditioning, stretching and stunting and girls enjoyed it a lot!

You can follow my team on social media: Facebook- DestinyCheerTeam, Youtube and Instagram.

GRUNGE p.11

Hello everyone! How are you?

My head is empty and I feel so odd. I am not living my life I am just over here watching life passing by as if I have never been a part of it.

Oh and also I can't walk. How cool is that? My leg and back got injured so all I can do now is lay in bed. The saddest thing is I can't train. I miss my cheer club so much (click). I won't be able to work out for the next two weeks at least which is so unfortunate. Wish me luck!

Anyway, since I am a piece of sh*t I don't have any other posts prepared. I will try to get better.

Last grunge post.

LONG TIME NO SEE

Long time no see & Happy New year!! :)

How are you all doing? I have been so innactive since last year and I do have a reason for that. In one of my previous posts I wrote about my health getting bad again. Due to my really annoying health problems I could not post on my blog, but I was still active on my instagram (@jayypam).

How has been your 2017 so far? I would love to know! I have had some rough days, but you know new year new motivation (so lame).

One fact you did not know is that my bestie ALEX  (click) visited me. I had such a great time with my baby and I can not wait to see her again! She is my sunshine.

In today's post I'm gonna insert a few pictures from my trip to Dedinky.(click) Alex, my boyfriend and I went to my family's cottage and we also spent New Year's Eve there. Enjoy the pictures and I will talk to you soon!

Disclaimer: Pictures are unedited.

SLEEP IT ALL AWAY

Hello, everyone! How are you today?

*FALL SERIES*

I've been absent on my blog recently because of health problems. It had gotten much worse two weeks ago and I ended up going to the doctors this week, so I missed out in school again. I wasn't having a good time really, even tho I didn't go to school.

Frankly, I did think about my blog. I hung out with my boyfriend yesterday and he was kind enough to take pictures of me.

Fall season is a season for all black witchy outfits and that's why I'm serving you this black look featuring my new bomber jacket. Excitement. I must admit I love my original harrington more, tho. Nonetheless, I am in love with this dark outfit so I hope you will be too!

 Spot my bomber jacket.

GRUNGE p.10

Hello everyone! How are you?

It has been a long time since I have posted a post like this so I hope you enjoy it.:)

Last grunge post.

SAN FRANCISCO

Hello beautiful people! How are you?

*Do you want fall outfit series? Let me know!*

Autumn is finally upon us and frankly, I am feeling the excitement going though my veins. I love autumn. It is inspiring, melancholic, gloomy and incredibly beautiful. Who agrees? I find myself way more creative in these colder seasons. On the other hand, I am also way more sad. Not sure why, but I heard that people are digging deeper into themselves when it comes to autumn/winter. What do you think? I think it is true. Indeed, that is my case, I am really sensitive to weather changes (including seasons of course!).

I have a relaxed and casual outfit for you that I wore on Thursday. School has started and slowly it is becoming harder and harder. I am fine with it (surprisingly). BTW: I love this weather! I love love love autumn clothes so much. Fall fashion in general is stunning and way more appealing (at least to me).