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Hello dollies!

Today is the last day of 2017. Does it mean anything to you? I mean humans created time so I guess it doesn't matter at all. My year was quite..eh. I don't know how to describe it. It was hectic, confusing, sad, very rough, disappointing and it learned me a lot. This year I learned so many things about life, about people and most of all about myself. I've been trying to overcome my deepest fears such as being myself and being open to basic human interactions. Although, my mental health got way worse I've got way stronger. To be honest, I'm not ready for another year because for me living is a chore. It's something I don't want and don't enjoy. Next year is my graduation year and I am not ready in the slightest. We will see. Thing are the way they are supposed to be.
So always be yourself and always learn new things. Let go of everything that holds you back and let your spirit free. Trust me and have a nice NYE.

YOU'RE NEVER GONNA LOVE ME | OOTD

*MARINA AND THE DIAMONDS SERIES*

Hello, dollies! How are you?

Today I have this cute soft grunge goth whatever outfit. I loved it so much and I felt amazing in it! It has been a long time since I dressed up the way I truly wanted to. It felt great. Be yourself no matter what!

I decided to do the Marina and the Diamonds series because that way you get to know her and I get to make different outfits. Let's move on to the outfit.

 BTW the lighting is off on all the pictures bc it was snowing when I took them. It was very bright. I'm sorry.

NOVEMBER FAVES | ૐ, MAKEUP, BOOKS AND MORE!

Hey, dollies! How are you?

Today's post is my November faves. I love these posts and even videos on youtube. You get to see peoples favourites and you get some tips on which products work and are worth the purchase.

November over all was a very hard month for me. It's been getting colder and colder and that makes me sad. I'm always cold and to be frank, I really don't want to leave my house anymore.

Let's get started with the post, shall we?

I DON'T BELONG TO ANYONE | OOTD

Hello dollies! How are you? 

I haven't been active here because I've been busy. Our school is literally insane! I'm so tired and fed up with homework. We learn things that are absolutely unimportant and completely useless. I can't wait to leave that school. I hate it sooo much.

Anyway, back to the outfit. I was thinking of doing Marina and The Diamonds inspired series where I post outfits along with one of her songs. Do you like the idea? 

DROWNING IN LEAVES

Hello, dollies!

Autumn is my favourite season, no doubts, but I haven't been enjoying it at all. I've been feeling lonely and I've been in so much pain for 2 months. Things have been difficult and it makes me more than sad because I can't enjoy this fall atmosphere. My spirit desires fall walks, dark lip colours, bags full of chestnuts and vibrant orange and yellow colours on trees. I haven't felt happy for a long time and not having the opportunity to enjoy this season more saddens me. It's going to be over soon.

Here are some pictures I took at the same time as the ones in my last post. Enjoy.

SWEATER WEATHER | OOTD

Hello, dollies! How are you?

My plan of posting 2 posts a week is failing miserably because of my busy schedule, but at least I always post an OOTD one a week which is great.

In this outfit I was trying to dress in a lot of typical fall colours such as mustard, black and red and to be honest, it worked out haha. I don't have much to say I mean this outfit is pretty boring and not really my style. Enjoy!

ROLL IN PEACE | OLD SCHOOL SKINHEAD

Hello, dollies! How are you?

*SKINHEAD SERIES*

I'm back with another ootd. I'm not as active as I used to because my school's been stressing me out and somehow I got injured in the month of September and I can't really walk so that's fun. I haven't been enjoying autumn as much as I used to and that is because I'm crazy busy and if I'm not, then I'm tired of being so busy. You know, it's a vicious circle, you can't really help it.

Enough of this boring talk. Let's get to the outfit! I went for an old school skinhead vibe inspired by the 90s (UK skinheads to be exact). Yes, I know I'm not wearing galluses which is the epidemy of an old school skinhead, but in my defense I forgot about them and I wasn't trying to recreate their outfits. I was just inspired. :D You get me right?

I AIN'T LIKE THESE HEAUX | ZOO TRIP

Hello, dollies!

*skinhead series*

This post should've been up like 2 weeks ago, haha. Too busy & lazy. I'm showing you a basic outfit, of course skinhead inspired obviously.

How are you doing? How's life going? I've never been so miserable. I'm even injured. Gotta keep going.

Sorry for being M.I.A.

Hello dollies!

I've been a little bit absent on here and that's because school's been crazy and to be frank, I'm really busy and the only thing I wanna do in my spare time is just lying in bed (and crying, but I can't control that). I'll add something soon because I have pictures and all, but no time to edit them and post them.

If you want to stay in touch with me add me on instagram: @jayypam and @valleyofthedollss1.

See you soon!

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EDEN | OOTD

Hello, dollies! How are you?

I'm feeling terrible. I don't know why, to be frank. I'm keeping a lot of emotions to myself and it truly tortures me. I don't know how to let them out and it makes me really unhappy, frustrated and angry. I hope it'll get better.

Today's post is an og ootd. I decided to wear something more pastel because it's a nice change. I'd love to wear more pastel pieces in the future. What do you think about pastels for fall? Let me know.

SPIS CASTLE | SUMMER TRIPPIN

Hey!! How are you?

As I promised in my last post, I'm doing a post about my trip to Spis Castle (Spišský Hrad). I went there 2 weeks ago with my love David (links to his social media at the end of this post). I enjoyed it a lot even tho I'd been there many times before. The whole castle is huge and magnificent. I highly recommend visiting it.

Now let's start with the spam. Enjoy.

NO TYPE | OOTD

Hello! How are you doing?

Yet another ootd? I know. They are getting boring. I'll try to post about makeup as well in the near future as well writing a bit more about my personal life. Next post is going to be about my trip to Spis Castle and get ready for shit tons of pictures! I'm excited.

How are your last days of summer going? I'm actually quite happy, which doesn't happen that often. I'm trying not to think about school and stress about how hard the next year is going to be. I'm graduating this year and let me tell ya...I'm certainly not ready! :D

NO ONE LIKES US | OOTD | SKINHEAD SERIES??!!

Heyy. How are you?

Skinhead series (too soon?)! If you had been following my blog for a while, you would have know that I've been doing these 'skinhead series' for 3 years now. It always starts at the beginning of autumn season, when everything get colourful and you can feel the atmosphere changing. Ahhh I love it. Even though summer is still upon us, I felt like putting on a hooligan tee and starting my skinhead series sooner!

Disclaimer: I love fashion that is associated to skinheads not their ideology or violence they may cause.

Check my past outfits from skinhead series! Romper Stomper, Only fools get caught, London skinhead crew.

ROLLY ROLLY (WITH A DAB OF RANCH) | OOTD

Hello everyone!

How are you? How are you enjoying the last weeks of summer? I'm starting to get anxious bc I hate school, arghh. I'm trying to figure out some things in my life and it's been hard not gonna lie. Anyway, here's another outfit. Really basic bitch inspired/ lazy egg drowning in its own sweat inspired. Hope you enjoy. :)

EVERYWHERE I GO | OOTD

Heyy!

I'm still going through some rough shit and I don't know how to deal with it. In my last post, I told you I wasn't really okay and it seems that all the bad stuff and all the shit is piling up on my shoulders (yet again). Like, will it ever stop? Gosh, I'm done with it.

Anyway, here you have the long-awaited outfit from my trip to Žilina.

Oh and also, I went to cheer camp with my team. Check out our insta @destinycheerteam

TRIP TO ŽILINA

Hello!

I'm going through a really hard time and it's hard for me to edit outfit photos so instead I have some random pictures I took on my trip. I'm really sorry and I'll post as soon as possible. Hopefully, I'll get better soon because it feels like I'm slowly dying inside...and I'm scared I will not be able to stand it.

SWANG | OOTD

Hello!

How are you all? I have this generic outfit post for you since they are my fave to post. I'm not gonna be active the next week because I'm gonna babysit my 2 little cousins.

To be honest, so far, I'm enjoying summer a lot. I like the weather because it's not super hot, but not really cold. I've been going out drinking, dancing and having fun. I never want this to stop. I'm not living in reality, I'm running away from it, but wine tastes so good and I love feeling numb at 2am in the morning with my best friend by my side. I know I can't live like this, but who ever said that I should live at all?

Disclaimer: My camera couldn't really pick up the small print on my pants and editing made it even worse. I apologize.

GIRLS MOTEL | OOTD

Hello everyone!

How's  your summer going? Are you dying of heat? I'm not, haha. It's not as warm which I like because I hate warm weather (that kind when you are naked and still sweat like crazy). In today's post, I'm showing you my lazy summer outfit for those days when you just hang out with your chums and chill. Enjoy!

SUMMER MAKEUP HAUL

Hello! How are you today? :)

I've finally decided to do a makeuo haul. If you know me in real life, you would know that I'm a makeup junkie, I absolutely love makeup. I don't buy it that often tho (budget ya know). I was so lazy to do this, but here I am showing you all the goodies I've recently picked up. Enjoy! :)

BTW: you could have seen some of this stuff on my instagram @valleyofthedollss1 (follow for makeup porn!)

GRUNGE p.12

Hello!

I'm back again can you believe it! I'm such a bad blogger and I keep trying to be consistent on my blog, but I always manage to fail. Either it's because of my health issues or because school is crazy and I don't have enough time. Or maybe I'm just making excuses. So I'm giving myself another chance to be a proper blogger again and if I fail again, I shoul quit. Will see what happens.

Today is the day of bringing back my favourite series on my blog- the grunge series wooo. I love getting inspired by other people's outfits and style, especially when it comes to grunge. Enjoy!

Last grunge post.

Sky Ferreira. 

I hope you got some inspo. Let me know which picture did you like the best!

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CLOSET GOALS! | AD

Hello! Long time no see.

I've been M.I.A. on my blog because life has been crazy, but I'm glad I'm back!

Today's post is inspired by Arhaus. 


In this post, I'm showing you what my dream closet would look like. It's pretty important because your closet holds all your clothes and maybe even shoes. I think we should pay more attention to closets. You can have so much fun decorating it or even building it! :)

There's a theme going on with white furniture such as this one. I love the minimalistic look of plain white furniture because it simply goes with everything and you can put your art (or paintings) on it. Furniture in my room (my closet and table) is white and I love putting paintings on it because it feels more like home and it looks good as well! What would your dream closet look like? Let me know!

WHAT I CREATE IS CHAOS

Hello! How are you?

I can't be happier. I feel spring in the air and I'm more than excited. I love when it's slowly starting to get warm. It feels so refreshing and everything seems brighter and more ravishing. I love the first sun rays and small flowers. They all look so lovely. Nature is truly magical.

I took some pictures today (by myself) and to be honest, it was hard because my phone didn't focus and I had no idea how to fix it so I just kept trying. I wanted to show you a casual outfit that is appropriate for school and is suitable for warmer weather. Let's start with the pictures. :)

 Ain't no Fentys

LIPSTICKS TO TRY | SPRING 2017

Hello! How are you today?

Sorry for not being here. I had a concussion and I was in hospital for a while. I'm all good now, but I can't dance which is unfortunate. My head still hurts a bit and I feel dizzy sometimes, but as I said it's getting better.

In this post, I'll be showing you my lipstick picks for spring. Spring is almost upon us and I am more than happy about it. I'll introduce you to some bright-coloured lipsticks filled with radiance and joy just like spring. This is the right time to be different and the right time to forget about your 'timid self'. Let's get started!

YOUNG ONES | LOVE

Hello everyone!

How are you? Long time no see. I've been crazy busy and uninspired. I was really confused this whole time because legally, I'm not a child, but I feel like one. Idk. 

I have an ootd post because these are my favs to make. Weather is a little bit better these days and so is my mood. I can't wait for spring to come! I love spring. I think it's because of my depression. It gets better in spring. 

(NOT SO SWEET) 18

Hello everyone.

I'd turned 18 on Wednesday. I know I should be happy about it. I'm an official adult. I can vote and I can buy cigarettes in every shop. The real issue is that I have never asked for this. I don't want this.

I'm lost in life. I'm not who I want to be and I'm afraid to be myself. I'm living in a cage made of my own insecurities. I'm living with a huge shadow in my head. It's getting bigger and bigger everyday. Sometimes I feel like life isn't for me. I've been struggling for too long and I still can't handle it.

I've been having nightmares for about 2 weeks. I can't get rid of them and they scare me so bad that I don't want to sleep because they seem so real. I don't know what causes this irrational fear. Presumably, it's because I associate this period of time (my b-day) with going to the hospital. I went there in the 9th grade which was 3 years ago. It still hauts me.

I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I guess I need to find my way and eventually, let myself to be happy and free.

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GALENTINE'S DAY WITH MY CHEER TEAM! | AD

Hello everybody! How are you?

I got the idea for this post from Eventbride (Click) which is a good source for planning and organizing events. You can easily set up events of your own and track who will be coming online with event organization software! (Click) They reached out to me with a great idea to make a post about Galentine's day. It's a day for you and your BFFs.

I thought since my bestie Alex lives in another country, I would make a fun day with my dearest cheerleaders. Our team is called DestinyCheerTeam and it is the only cheerleading club in Kosice, Slovakia. This kind of post is quite unusual for my blog, but after a long time of deciding it is finally here! We had a fun lesson full of dancing, conditioning, stretching and stunting and girls enjoyed it a lot!

You can follow my team on social media: Facebook- DestinyCheerTeam, Youtube and Instagram.

JAN FAVS

Hello! How are you? :)

I haven't done this kind of post in a really long time. I like doing them, I'm just not sure if you like them. Tell me if you wanna see more! I'd love to know.

Obviously, January isn't over yet, but I still wanted to post this. I don't think I'll discover any products this month. Most of these products I got for Christmas and I am beyond grateful for them. I love these products and I use them quite frequently. I hope you will enjoy this post as much as I enjoyed doing it! Let's get started. :)

FACE:

 My all time favourite foundation is Revlon Colorstay. I am in the shade Ivory because I'm really pale. I use it mainly underneath the eyes and like an eye primer. I hardly ever use it as a foundation bc I stay away from foundation as much as I could because my skin is terrible, but when I use it on my face I love it. Keep in mind I have really oily skin and this is really good. I don't feel oily when I wear it and it looks beautiful on the skin. I got this product when I was in Krakow, so I'm not quite sure where you can get this in Slovakia. You can try this website.

GRUNGE p.11

Hello everyone! How are you?

My head is empty and I feel so odd. I am not living my life I am just over here watching life passing by as if I have never been a part of it.

Oh and also I can't walk. How cool is that? My leg and back got injured so all I can do now is lay in bed. The saddest thing is I can't train. I miss my cheer club so much (click). I won't be able to work out for the next two weeks at least which is so unfortunate. Wish me luck!

Anyway, since I am a piece of sh*t I don't have any other posts prepared. I will try to get better.

Last grunge post.

LONG TIME NO SEE

Long time no see & Happy New year!! :)

How are you all doing? I have been so innactive since last year and I do have a reason for that. In one of my previous posts I wrote about my health getting bad again. Due to my really annoying health problems I could not post on my blog, but I was still active on my instagram (@jayypam).

How has been your 2017 so far? I would love to know! I have had some rough days, but you know new year new motivation (so lame).

One fact you did not know is that my bestie ALEX  (click) visited me. I had such a great time with my baby and I can not wait to see her again! She is my sunshine.

In today's post I'm gonna insert a few pictures from my trip to Dedinky.(click) Alex, my boyfriend and I went to my family's cottage and we also spent New Year's Eve there. Enjoy the pictures and I will talk to you soon!

Disclaimer: Pictures are unedited.